Hey, Clay here.
If you're a first-time reader, welcome. Let me tell you why I’m here.
We live a pretty magical life, full of miracles and abundance, yet our consensus reality would tell us otherwise. As Soulcruzer, I'm taking on the role of Morpheus, and this newsletter is my Nebuchadnezzar. I'm here to guide you down the rabbit hole with an erudite blend of fact, fiction, and esoteric knowledge. Unlike Morpheus, though, I'm not here to offer you The Truth. I'm only offering you a chance to seek self-understanding by questing, questioning, and challenging consensus reality in order to find your own truth. If, at any point, you feel confused, that's a good thing. As my mentor said, "Confusion precedes new understanding." So, sit back, relax, and enjoy the trip.
Let’s get on with the show…
Imagine if you were so fully present during each experience of life that it was touching you to the depth of your being. Every moment would be a stimulating, moving experience because you would be completely open, and life would be flowing right through you. - Michael Singer, The Untethered Soul
seeker, or explorer?
I'm trying to come to terms with whether I'm a seeker or an explorer on my spiritual path. Seeking is defined by its intentionality—a directed quest for a specific answer or truth. The seeker's journey has a clear endpoint or resolution in mind. Yet this singular focus may render them blind to the myriad wonders just outside their tunnel vision.
Exploring, on the other hand, is like wandering through a forest with no map, guided only by curiosity. The explorer is open to whatever may come, without expectations or a predetermined destination. For them, the journey is the destination; it's about experiencing the serendipitous discoveries that unfold. Their path meanders like a flowing river through landscapes of possibility.
The seeker may ask, "Where is the wisdom I seek?" whereas the explorer wonders, "What wisdom can I discover?" The seeker aims for a specific outcome, while the explorer remains open to various, even unforeseen, possibilities.
In mythology, this dichotomy often emerges through characters like Odysseus, both a purposeful seeker and a wandering explorer. His quest to return home to Ithaca was a clear, singular goal, yet his journey became an odyssey of exploration, encountering divine beings and mythic creatures alike.
In the past, I've self-identified as a seeker of knowledge for its own sake, claiming I wasn't looking for anything specific. But on reflection, I feel more aligned with the explorer, wandering with curiosity as my guide. I resonate with Tolkien's sentiment that "not all those who wander are lost." I'm realising my path is not linear but is open to mystery and unexpected discovery.
the insatiable nature of the human mind
is a perpetual cycle. No matter how much we acquire—whether material goods, knowledge, experiences, or accomplishments—it never seems to be enough. There is always some new desire or thirst waiting to be quenched. But fulfilment remains fleeting.
The moment a long-awaited wish is granted or a goal is achieved, there is a brief sense of satisfaction and contentment. For a while, we revel in this peak, enjoying what we have finally attained after so much effort. But soon that euphoric summit descends into a mundane plateau devoid of excitement. The novelty wears off; complacency creeps in. What was once a reward, a respite, becomes the status quo—just another ordinary achievement or possession.
And so the wanting returns. We look ahead to the next source of stimulation, the next endeavour that promises adrenaline and a temporary reprieve from boredom’s gnaw. And the cycle starts once more—striving, chasing, and consuming. Around and around it goes—this interminable loop of desire and disillusionment.
Perhaps it stems from the belief that the grass is perpetually greener on the other side and that a better life always lies just over the horizon if only we acquire that one missing piece. Or maybe it is the fear of facing an existence devoid of forward momentum, paralyzed by the question, “Is this all there is?” Whatever the root cause, one thing remains clear: the thinking mind loves to wander and wonder, to envision possibilities, and to discover frontiers. But too often, it leaves contentment behind in the process, sacrificing the joys of the present for some ever-fleeting future fulfilment. The only escape may be cultivating an ability to ground ourselves in the now, to appreciate what we have achieved instead of rushing furiously onward, before boredom sets in once more, spurring us again to dream up adventures elsewhere.
perception, reality, and the unknown self
If you had no fear, you could be perfectly happy living in this world. Nothing would bother you.
I went out for a late afternoon walk. It wasn’t my intention to record a video, but I did. I wanted to recommend The Untethered Soul: The Journey Beyond Yourself, by Michael Singer.
And look at that; I’ve managed to get all three mediums in this issue. It has been an interesting week for me this week. I’m still processing it all, so I don’t have any details for you at the moment, but as soon as I make sense of it all, I’m sure I will share my insights with you here.
Until then, my friend, peace and love to you.
Clay